Friday, October 12, 2012

uts

Assalamualaikum. Tumben ya aku ngucapin salam haha. Aku lagi UTS nih, tau  UTS kan ? kalo gak tau cari aja di google :p . Karena aku orang nya baik dan tidak sombong, aku kasih tau deh UTS tu apa...UTS itu Ulangan Tengah Semester. Hari ini hari ke empat aku UTS. Ruang 10 adalah ruang ujian ku. Aku seruang sama kelas 11 IPA 1. Denger nama kelasnya aja dah bisa nebak kan, pasti anaknya alim-alim dan pinter pastinya. Ternyata oh ternyata, mereka LOL banget haha. Apalagi teman sebangku ku, mas Mukhes pacarnya mbak Pradina itu, kalau nyontek enak banget, mbuh ketahuan apa enggak dia pasti berani.

Hari ini finalnya JRBL, sebenernya pengen banget nonton, tapi kok keliatannya mendung ya. Tau JRBL gak ? -_- apa perlu aku jelasin lagi ? haha.. JRBL tu  Junior Basketball League apa ya -___- gata aku lupa hehe.

The last, aku kangen banget sama wwn, udah hampir seminggu gak smsan.. walaupun juga tiap hari ketemu di sekolah tapi “seolah kita kalo ketemu kayak gak saling kenal”. Gatau lah haha..fokus UTS !

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Bridge

Rasanya pengen teriak, rasanya pengen merasakan bebas tanpa memperdulikan tanggung jawab, tanpa memperdulikan tugas, tapi.....impossible. Macam mana orang yang ngelakuin kayak gitu haha, hidupnya gak ada aturan, kayak anak kecil aja maunya....dan itu yang gue rasain... .Aku ngerasa sedikit labil , entah semenjak aku masuk SMA , aku merasa something wrong happen on me, and i just don't know why. Dan sekarang aku udah sadar aku harus ngapain, dan aku tau jawaban apa yang tepat buat ku saat ini.

Mungkin ini adalah sebuah masa dimana pada saat ini aku berada di sebuah jembatan, jembatan menuju dewasa. Di jembatan ini lah yang menentukan, apakah aku harus berjalan pelan-pelan, hati-hati dan penuh keyakinan, atau harus berlari , tanpa memperdulikan sekitar , dan akhirnya mungkin aku jatuh dari jembatan itu. Di jembatan ini pula aku harus bisa memaksakan diriku untuk berbuat apa yang menjadi beban buat ku, maksudnya ..pasti semua orang merasakan beban yang berbeda-beda , beban disini diartikan sebagai tanggung jawab besar yg harus kita lakuin. Dan aku juga berpikir , saat aku berada di jembatan , pasti banyak rintangan, aku butuh orang yang bisa bantu aku melewati semua itu, orang itu salah satu faktor yang bisa membuatku berhasil menyeberangi jembatan itu, orang itu pula yg mempengaruhi ku.. ini sebenernya kode juga sih ..eh haha...

Jadi, aku harus gimana bloggers ? apa aku harus terus-terusan ngetik di blog, tanpa nemuin orang itu ... nemuin sesuatu yang bisa membantuku melewati jembatan itu... ? :") 

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

weird

do you wanna know about my feeling now ? don't ask me. Because i didn't know at all. This is so holy freak ! i hate being this, but i like being this either. what should i do ? So, i haven't explain what is exactly happen right now on me .. 

i'm feeling like , i had twins. But not really twins, it seems like my personality have twins but i mean ....huaaaaa its hard for me to describe it. So actually, i knew that i have a good and a bad side. And i realized about both of those thing. And weirdly , why i can't remove the bad side..sometime i felt being on bad side is fun but i hate too.. 

Help me........................................:(

white

Aku nyimak hlo.. aku ngestalk hlo ? terus aku kudu pie terusan ? aku bukan tembok haha .. "aku hiper" kata Falih. Kalau gak dong baca blog ku , gausah buka blog ku lagi aja haha.... 

Nulis di blog juga suka-suka gue mau nyambung ceritanya apa enggak, laptop-laptop gue, keyboard, tangan semuanya punya gue. Muuup ea lagi badmood. Lagi sensitif , semacam lg PMS tapi bukan...sepertinya kata yang tepat buat saya sekarang adalah " ENVY=JEALOUS=JELLY=CEMBURU=IRI" enaknya apa ya ? cemburu aja deh... wkwk

Semua orang diciptakan punya perasaan masing-masing. Ada yang tabah, ada yang putus asa, ada yang easy  tersinggung (boso opo?-_-) ada yang suka cemburu ya kayak aku ini ..tapi cemburu dalam tanda petik. Aku gak mau kasih tau yang pasti kenapa, asal muasal, sebab , mergo kenopo aku iki cemburu (?). Karena aku takut yang baca blogku kesindir, karena sampai sekarang siapa sih yang baca blog kita ? kita gak tahu kan siapa ? dan apa mereka (si pembaca) tahu pasti siapa yang saya maksud ? ..sebelum nya aku udah bilang kan . "semua orang diciptakan punya perasaan masing-masing" maksudnya di kata ini adalah..kita gak bisa ngasal membuat suatu pernyataan yang kita sendiri gak mau terlalu frontal bilangnya, dalam kata lain kita mau menyindir orang tapi kita gak mau orang yang bukan kita maksud  merasa bahwa itu buat mereka.

Jadi aku tadi nyimak TL ..aku cuma bisa bilang "Oh" . Sekedar penasaran... semua pertanyaan yang ada di pikiranku setelah aku nyimak TL tadi ya .."apa sih ? kenapa gak aku ? kapan sih ? coba ya...kamu.." haha bar sabar nan.. semua ada waktunya, tapi dear aku gak mau sampai "udah jatuh ketiban tangga" seenggaknya kamu kasih kepastian hoho..

Kenapa aku bijak sekali ya hari ini ? mungkin efek dari minuman yang tadi aku minum -_- apaan sih itu white coffie (bukan promosi) ..

Jujur ya, aku gak suka ngetik panjang-panjang, karena gue tau kadang ada orang yang suka baca postingan yang panjang banget, ada juga yang sekilas baca doang. Intinya... udahan ya :D haha 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

it's time

I wanna tell you about my life *again*

I always think that i'm a good person. i always want to be perfect than the other. it doesn't mean i'm a mean person, i'm boastful ? it wouldn't. sometimes i act so annoying , i always talk bad about my *piiip* . i don't know why ? but when people act like those thing , i always think that they were worse.

now , i don't know how to solve those are.

*about relationship*

deardobleuuu ..

still like the past. i run.. run...and then wait...wait until the time comes..

why ? am i wrong ? or maybe i don't deserve you ? now i try to understand you, how to know you. but please would you do the same :")? i need your smile..cause you are all that i need right know. don't blame me if i'm too loving you, if you feel bothered by me ? just leave me :")..but remember ? i'm still here beside you. nothing gonna change my feeling to you. every second, every minute , your text , your smile emoticons, your laughs, that's all my food. nothing's work like you. i never lie to you, i always being honestly .. why ? cause it is really true . "i miss you" is not just words, is not bullsht. so this is me ...i'm always glad you have a time to text me. i'm not gonna missed every chances. i love love, i care care :"...please don't be childish again :" try to UNDERSTAND each other..

whenever it is... I'M STILL WAIT :"D


once upon a time

hai hai... Gatau kenapa akhir-akhir ini aku balik ngeblog lagi guys :D ..pasti pada seneng kan ya my readers ? :p

kangen banget ya pasti sama cerita ku yang baru di masa-masa SMA ini haha...
oh ya hari ini kelasku semutlis ( acara bersih-bersih se sekolah gitu ) capek guys jadinya aku gak basket nih. pengen banget ngeshare foto haha ,  nanti deh ya aku mau pamer gelang peace ku ( don't try this at home-_- ) ..

suddenly i'm feeling happier right know, idk he suddenly texts me, how so happy i am :) ..

pamer -_- 

haha

W? whooo ....

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

confession *again*

THIS IS MY BIGGEST #KODE

i love you ,  i don't know it comes suddenly...

You different , i'm different too ..let's be together to make it same..

i'm sorry if i always bother you , i just want to care you, i don't want anyone more care about you than me..

i wanna be the only one..

but i don't forced you, if you are not love me, let me still love you ..

i'm still here, look at me  ? i'm still survive ... til the time comes ..

hufttt ... hope you read this , key ?




Hai gimana kabar nih blogku tercinta? its been a long long long long time ...haha amicu ... saking lamanya album kedua One Direction " Take Me Home " udah keluar haha..

Yah beginilah kehidupan High School.. a lot of duty, a lot of homework.. yaya masih adaptasi nih guys..
kendalanya pas SMA tu ya gini nih.. yang gakbisa buat aku maju

 PERTAMA " aku sering banget ngeluh" aku berasa ini tuh berlebihan, complicated banget ..aku masih belum bisa nerima aku harus sesibuk ini, aku harus kemana-mana cari bahan belajar sendiri, kadang pula aku selalu ngeluh kecapekan karena pulang sore, dan Mamaku , Adekku pasti selalu jadi sasaranku buat melampiaskan kecapekanku. salah tau kayak gitu tu...

KEDUA " masih terbawa masa-masa SMP" yaaa aku harus bisa berubah mulai saat ini, "i'm still on my way " masih di perjalanan menuju lebih dewasa, harus bisa ngatur waktu main, belajar dan istirahat yang pasti. jangan menggampangkan sesuatu, karena ini beda banget dari SMP, yang katanya Pak Budi " waktu SD kamu masih disiapin makan sama di suapin, waktu SMP kamu udah bisa makan sendiri, dan sekarang SMA ini waktunya kamu masak sendiri makan sendiri " ..

KETIGA ... gatau deh XP haha bingung malahan...

intinya ... AKU HARUS BERUBAH ! BOLEH SIH NDUGAL TAPI TETEP SEMBADA YA B-)

mau ngeshare video nya Live While We're Young nih ;)




Thursday, August 16, 2012

Confession

Guys, i'm feeling confession again. its been long time since i'm not got shilly-shally about my ex-. now i feel the same.

i just met him in my new high school. he just looks like my ex. there's no differences between him and my ex haha. and this is just like my own way. everyday i always thinking about him. no matter what he never be kind of me, but i know there's something between us. and i know you were like me, like i do to you.

its hard to you , just to tell me your feeling. and i know you are not like the general guys i've ever met. and i know how hard you just to meet me, how so shy you are, i knew. with all those bull shit they gave us, let ignore them.

Let me let it flow guys! i know when the big time is coming you will know and you will do that :) , i trust you !!

i think you are funny guy, you are always make me curious. that's why i like you !!

hope you will be mine XD haha LOL ..... i really ...mean that

last night

HELLO HELLO ....

HOW ARE YOUUUU ? I'M GOOD DUDE...

hey, i want to share my photos last night. last night i and my friends ( Aulia, Divti, Ocha and Chiput) went to Nasi Goreng Padmanaba huaaa i'm so happy. before we going there, Aulia came over my home and then we picked up Divti. After that we arrived at Padmanaba. There's Ocha and Chiput have been waiting us.

We were talking each other, took a pict and ate absolutely. ...

After we have break fasting, Chiput said that she wanted grill corn ... And Aulia told her that the best grill corn in this place is in Lempuyangan , then we were going there.

i bought grill banana with cheese , it was so yummy.........

This our pictures ..

Aulia and I ;;) 

I , Aulia and Beautiful Och >,<

Aulia, Divti, Chiput and I

blue sweater ? its me

#FOREVERYOUNG 

#AWESOMELIGHT TAKEN BY OCHA

love this

the lights look awesome taken by chiput

friend's hug

WE ARE YOUNG AND BEAUTIFUL 

I REALLY LOVE THIS PICT 

we are never ever be fulled of food , keep eat!!!!!

CUTEST THING EVER 

Sunday, July 29, 2012

lalalayeyeye

HEIII FELLAS !!!1 WHAZZUP ???

it has been a thousand year i'm not posting !!! #toomuch #whocares haha, did you miss me ? i know you were really miss me, i'm back !!! let's get party started! haha...

there's many thing  you've missed guys, a huge of my stories. Do you wanna know? PAY ME 1 MILLION DOLLAR , and then i will tell you XD haha , just joking guys !

DO YOU KNOW NOW I AM A DIRECTIONER ????? DO YOU KNOW I AM NOW IN SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL ?? DO YOU KNOW HOW MY DAY RIGHT NOW? DO YOU KNOW HOW MY FASTING YESTERDAY? (today i'm m------, so i'm not fasting) huft.... should i tell you one by one ? T.T its need more than 1 page of this. haha.....

okay btw , #normally .... how are you guys? i'm fine , thank you :) , what are you doing right now fellas? i'm playing my keyboard right now:) #WHOCARES.

YOU WANNA KNOW ABOUT MY CLASS? X5.... A LOT OF ABNORMAL PEOPLE...INCLUDED ME....XD

i want to share some pics , wait wait......don't you download them.....i could get 1000$ per each......... haha

beautiful? no i'm not.... but i'm magnificent 

zayn's girlfriend

i think a girl who on the right side is more..............cool

idk why upload this -____- haha 

a doctor.............not yet

Saturday, March 10, 2012

i'm on my way

*back song SHE-Selingkuh Sekali Saja 

Have you heard this song ? it doesn't mean i want to do like the title of the song. i just love the music and it easy to be sang. and the song is so melow ... 

*back song JYJ- In Heaven 

I really love this song !!! so meaningful . have you ever underestimated and left someone who loved you ? but actually you were more love him. and now, when you want him back...you don't want him to let you go, cause you are really love him so much. and he think it all just lies. you wanted him to say "i love you" ...you begged him.  and you feel , without him you can't live. but finally you were late... and it just nothing. 

*back song Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts 

I fond of this lyrics's song. have you ever feel like this lyrics? your ex-boyf/girlf begged you ? he/she wanted you to come back to him/her. who does he/she thinks he/she is ? ...After all that he/she doing with you ? ...think twice! 

*back song Coboy  Junior - kamu 

What a cutest singer ! Bastian!!! have you another brother ? xD ... this song is very ... funny i think .

*back song 2NE1-Lonely 

this is my favorite song . best title . best lyrics . and it is so me . 

turned me now . i really scared. it almost 1 month to go . i'm on my way now . i'm trying , and trying to be better. and face all my problems . but i really need a teacher who really match of me. honestly , i'm so fulled of     papers of questions . it makes me bored and tired somehow . ... 

bye:)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

lyrics

open your eyes, read this! 

"don't you know i'm not your a ghost anymore " Jar of Hearts. 

" try, to look at me and really see my heart ..." Why ( Avril Lavigne ).

"i'm not the only one a part ..." Why ( Avril Lavigne ). 

complicateed

discussing about my set place for photo's year book . we got some "debated" between boys's mind and girls's mind . i don't know, why they always though the genre? (tempat gondes, mendes) . otherwise, when we wanted to take a photo we just need the "view" . at least Malioboro has an amazing view at night. the light, the people, etc. 

whatever they wanted, i just follow them. 

i'm so glad he bought me a bottle of water :') . haha just a bottle of water? how so flying my feele, if he bought me a flower ? i'm gonna die . i am to much , right ? hahaa.... 

Hey, tomorrow will be Arta's birthday . look what happen tomorrow with her. stinky, smelly and exactly she will take a bath with 7 kind of flowers haha...

wearing my glasses, how's my face ? haha 

Bye..

Friday, March 2, 2012

Advertisements ? all of them just give bullsh*t 
You ? give me fake promises 
Bad Boy ? you just do all that you wanted 
Good Boy ? keep all his word|never makes a girl cry of him 
Bad Girl ? Really bitch ! leave him|get him again|do what she's like
Good Girl ? love the way you are|never be somebody else|always give you surprises
Me ? i'm just nothing|you kind of me, i'll kind of you back|but i really hate word "fake"
He? He was really special, but now ... i don't know|never gives me clearly explanation|depending me, hate it most|someone who always i dreamed at night|ever makes me laugh, smile, cry almost 


I don't know why some people has their good act and bad act . but it is their way . 

Thursday, March 1, 2012

FUNNY! xD





Herpes

my fingers are hurt . they were so painful . i can't handle it . my brotha told me that it was herpes . some kind of skin's illness . i thought that it was touched by hot water, but is not actually . the wound festering , it is very gnawed, luckily my daddy has the salve . wish the salve can heal me o:) .

By the way, i am so confused about next Saturday .... 

Don't ask me why ? what happen next Saturday ? you don't know how's me . :(t. if i tell my fam stories you will not understand . and i don't want everybody know it . just let me keep own mine.

okay, instead of sad .... better of i share my photo ..

tiled 

lomo

lomo =)

lomo =))

rainbow

colorful 

colorful

hmmm i don't knowm

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

lyrics

"i'm so glad, you made a time to see me ..how's life? tell me how's your family? " . Back to December

"now i can't take one more step toward you .." . Jar of Hearts

"now you want me one more time ? who do you think you are ? " . Jar of Hearts

"in another life , i would be your girl we keep all our promises be us against the world ". The One That Got Away

"you are always gonna be my love ... " . First Love ( Utada Hikaru)

"had a dream i was king , i woke up still king ..". Lighters

"i need a doctor to bring me back to life ...". I Need a Doctor

"i don't know who you are but i... i'm with you ...". I'm With You

"

my memo part 2






Wait part 3 guys ...

my memo part 1

 i want to write about my notes(memo)  in my phone . these all about my daily story . xD while i'm waiting for my video .


01/05/2011 9.05 p.m.
I always think of made a plan to let you go. And it couldn't happen
to me. Why ? I'm too loving you :').. Just  say " i love you " to you, fo sho i'll show it
on you! Hope sometimes i can cuddling you:') and say " goodnight dear, have a nice dream :* "
everynight, fo sho, i'll do it ! But when ? :((


01/05/2011 9.09 p.m.
"Ooooooo..." You just can say that :(. Please change it into "Oooo, i swear that you are
the best thing that i never have yet :) "


01/05/2011 9.13 p.m.
Are you remember ? when the first time you want me introducing ? No....
Or you forgot it :'). Are you feel seem like me, if we receive each our text ?
Flying :)...... Wake up Nandyaaaa !!!! Don't let you over dream about him !


01/05/2011 9.16 p.m.
I was wrong ! Always be the first! I know i'm female?
Is female good for be the first ? texted her guy ? :')


03/05/2011 5.55 p.m.
Worried worried, i will be worried if you have another girl ):


03/05/2011 5.56 p.m.
I am writing this memo , when i thinking that i really want to text you now :(


06/06/2011 10.45 p.m.
On 19th of May 2011, it was very amazing, spectacular, hot,
crazy and too much happiness. I was writing on my memo and wrote about you boy, about
my feeling and now!!! i'll delete them hahahaha... Maybe start from now, i want to write about my love
story with him!


06/06/2011 11.01 p.m.
First, i might be wake up from my far away dream. Huh , before i was tired to through my life . And
with little help from my best buddy, it give a way from him to do something that will make me surprised! Okay thanks buddy ! Escaping from rumor, i won't tell my relation to anyone. And wait a good time to announce it haha.. you know me , i'm a shy person , and will showing my red face if i meet him! ..


06/06/2011 11.04 p.m.
Muah dada...... Hey ! he said it for me , foe the first time

Monday, February 27, 2012

my laugh, my tears, and my best

Remembering, time go so fast . i've spent  all my time, day, month , and year with my best class 9I . it has been three years. i don't know, can i leave them within smile ? or absolutely big crying . i'm sorry before liar's, my a few post this week, all about farewell haha xD....

wishful thinking about this ...

"I CAN'T GIVE YOU ALL THAT YOU WANTED GUYS, BUT I'LL REPLY ALL YOUR KINDHEARTED TO ME TOMORROW, SOMETIMES, AND EXACTLY I WILL. "


"KEEP CALM AND COOL , YEA MAN !! WHEN WE'VE GRADUATED . AND WHEN (IF) WE HAD REUNION !!!" *HAHA

believe this quote guys, when you had pressured .
i found this, when i am on the way to school. someone worn clothe with written this text

"YOU CAN SEE ALLAH SWT EVERYWHERE. IF YOUR MIND IS SET TO LOVE AND OBEY ALLAH SWT"

Thursday, February 23, 2012

NINE GRADE

NINE GRADE 

is the hardest year that i've ever felt before.  maybe when i was SEVEN GRADE i can browsing, chatting every time and everyday. maybe when i was EIGHT GRADE, i can hang out, going to mall, shopping with my friends every Sunday.

this time... taught, trained me to be elder. completing me to be an adult. gives me a chance to be success. makes me more patient to face all my problem, managing my time etc. And mainly, gives me the value of life.

In NINE GRADE

There's many moment that makes me laugh, smile, stomachache, even cry. hahaaa ... , we could skip that day. we went to canteen while the teacher was teaching. we made a video.we sang in the class loudly. we fight. we  were in love. we had a foe . we cry a lot of because of him or her. And many more...

The worst part of NINE GRADE

I supposed to leave all my best friend. i'll be graduated. i'm gonna be cry.starting with a new school. but won't forget them .... love u all (˘⌣˘)ε˘`). 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

:{

Relationship L
It is so wet.. I cleaned up my tears with my shall while I was sitting in this park. Thinking that now I am just nothing. Too confidence perhaps, too weak perhaps but mostly I’m too love you. It is over for me and you. Hard to get you, hard to forgetting you. You are everything . Like another stories, it has happy ending maybe always. But for me it wouldn’t be.

Remember your swores to me. It was just bullsh*t . I try to be patient but you were explode out. I guarentee, there’s no body perfect but you are my perfectness, there’s no body most beautifull but you are my beautifulness.

END. Very hate that word. We can’t solve it but you dont want.  Thinking more elder.
Remember ?? who was the first want me to introduced? In this occassion you were so kind, sweet and lovely. I texted you, you replied. You calledme, I picked up my phone. How amazing it was.

HARD TO FIND SOMEONE WHO HAS “TRUSTWORTHNESS”
I think it will be you but it won’t.
Relationship? Some people who in love , very excited with this word. Some people who in sadness, very depressed to heard this word. It is life, liar’s.

I’m didn’t mind to call my readers with LIAR’S , it doesn’t mean you are liar (pendusta) . it has meaning . my (L)ife (I)s (A)dolescen’s (R)ule J
That’s all bye...  

Monday, February 20, 2012

SILLY XD part 2

jenong 

w/ my sista

ugly

WEIRD

MORE WEIRD

TERRIFYING

rain rain rain............ i'm afraid with lightning ... the sound was terrifying ...it was surprised me . Oh god i worried,  my sister doesn't go home yet. actually my mom commanded me that i should pick her up. but then. i text my mother, i'm afraid to go out, the sky is so dark outside. 

the cold room , the turn off lamp...make me more afraid even i'm alone. try to thinking , if it will be a ghost hahaha.... want to share my picture at school today ,  but the connection is so damn slow... 

how about my exam today , i feel so confidence but still depend on Allah SWT and keep praying. cause many of questions that i ever do it at school. so i just remember it. that's like free question for us. we should be grateful . and may be my score will increase amin.......

tomorrow will be English exam ( i guess) wish wish wish .. I GET 10 SCORE !!! AMIN.....

today is my ex-boyf's sister haha 'kaka" YOLI ({}) she's so pretty kind girl , not like her brother wkwkw ..  i tweeted her ... want to see..
my print screen

kak yoli, isn't she pretty ? :)


okay that's all byee......:)

Sunday, February 19, 2012

SILLY XD

want to share something silly in here................................
check this out..

did you see my bind hair? -_-
the uggliest face ...you've ever seen

lovelovelove

together w/love